The Adjourning Phase

Looking back at the different groups I have been a part of in the past, I fondly recall the various church groups I have been a part of. In Sri Lanka I grew up in community filled with a number of churches from various denominations with active Sunday schools. Each year the Sunday schools would participate in an inter-church bible quiz competition. I was a part of a group that participated in this competition for several years although several group members changed along the way. Each year, we would meet for several weeks leading up to the quiz along with a Sunday school teacher to prepare for the quiz. We thoroughly enjoyed these group times because it not only involved learning but opportunities to have fun and bond with our group members. The quiz was highly competitive and some years we had better luck than others. Regardless, after each quiz, whatever the outcome we did something special to celebrate our hard work as a team. The same can be said for the church children’s choir that I was a part of.  The highlight of each year was the Carol Service we presented at Christmastime. This usually took much preparation and practicing and we always made it a point to have a celebration after the service. As I grew older and my time with these groups were over, I found it hard to say goodbye to both these groups. Within both groups I had found a supportive environment where we were all committed to achieving a common goal. We were appreciative of each other’s contribution and became close as we worked together over time. I have kept in touch with many of them over the years and not surprisingly one of them happens to be my husband! Reflecting on group experiences that were not as positive, I do think it is harder to leave groups that are high performing. 

                When thinking about saying goodbye to my colleagues towards the end of this year upon completion of my Masters degree, I think it will be hard in some ways. Although we have not met in person, we have shared stories, personal journeys of learning and supported each other along the way. I think that we will all feel a shared sense of accomplishment that we would not have been able to achieve on our own without each other’s support. Hopefully, I will be able to meet some of my colleagues at graduation next year where we can celebrate our accomplishments in person.

Resolving conflict using Nonviolent Communication and the 3 Rs

In my current capacity as an Assistant Teacher, I co-teach a Pre-K classroom with two other teachers. One of the teachers is the Lead teacher for the classroom while the other teacher holds the title Assistant Teacher like me. Despite the titles we hold, our goal has been to work collaboratively as a team. However, over the two years that we have been working together as a team we have had many issues which we have not been able to resolve completely. My Lead Teacher and I often felt that the Assistant Teacher was not fulfilling her share of daily classroom responsibilities. During planning meetings she would often stay quiet neither contributing ideas nor expressing any opinions about ideas offered by us. Often times, she would not follow through with the lesson plans designed for the classroom. In addition, she seemed to have a difficult time accepting direction from the Lead Teacher or myself. Even though we tried to talk to her about the situation she became defensive and shutdown to the point where we had no way of knowing what she was thinking, feeling or what her own frustrations might be. Despite our frustrations and our inability to resolve the situation did not approach the Director about it, not wanting to get our co-worker ‘in trouble’. She on the other hand, rather than discussing her frustrations with us directly, approached the Director and complained that we were excluding her, not taking her ideas into consideration, not communicating with her etc. This led to a meeting with the Director where each of us got the opportunity to openly voice our concerns. The Director immediately recognized that the underlying issue was our failure to communicate with each other effectively.  

                Looking back on the conflict I believe that my colleagues and I could have handled the situation more effectively by applying the concepts of Nonviolent Communication and the 3 R s. First of all, I think we all needed to take the time to see things from each other’s perspectives and understand what the other may have been feeling about the situation. During our discussion we learned from the Assistant Teacher that the way the Lead Teacher asked her to do something made her feel as if she was ordered around. My Lead Teacher and I made her aware that while our intentions were not to exclude her, rather than place blame on us alone for not communicating with her that she too needs to take the initiative to find out what is going on and be an active part of the conversations taking place about the classroom. There were many other issues that were discussed during the meeting that allowed all three of us to learn about how each of us felt and what we needed from each other to improve the situation. 

Although I was unaware of the concept of Nonviolent Communication and the 3Rs at the time, looking back as well as moving forward I can see how our relationships can benefit from being more respectful and responsive in our interactions, stating observations about a situation rather than judging, taking each other’s feelings and needs into consideration and being mindful of our choice of words when we are making requests so it does not seem like we are making demands.  While we have been able to improve the situation by being more conscious about how we communicate with each other, our efforts at working well together as a team is still a work in progress. My Lead Teacher and I ensure that the Assistant Teacher is aware of all classroom happenings and plans and she too makes the effort to check-in with us regularly. My Lead teacher is more conscious about how she asks the Assistant Teacher to do a task and we all make an extra effort to active listen to each other. I believe that by using my newfound knowledge, my colleagues and I will be able to become more effective communicators and improve how we function as a team.

Evaluating my Communication Skills

For this week’s assignment, I asked my husband and my co-teacher to evaluate my communication skills. I was surprised to find that all that the three of us felt similarly but pleased because I felt that it is an indication that their perception of me is similar to how I perceive myself. In the communication anxiety inventory, I earned a moderate score. I do well communicating in both one-on-one and small group situations, but have extreme anxiety about addressing a large crowd and both my husband and colleague are well aware of that. The listening scale indicated that I am a people-oriented communicator. I am generally a quiet person and tend to listen more before speaking. As the results indicated, I am very trusting of others and over the years, experience has taught me that while being empathetic towards others, it is also wise to be cautious so as not to cloud my judgments. 

In the verbal aggressiveness scale, my scores placed me in the moderate category. As my score indicates, I try as much as possible to maintain a good balance between respect and consideration for the viewpoints of others and argue facts rather than attack a person. However, I was almost expecting different results from my husband’s evaluation because I am fully aware that I sometimes have a little less patience when communicating with him and other family members and am more vocal about my opinions in the comfort of our home environment than I am at work and in other professional settings. I was somewhat surprised yet pleased to hear that he feels that I do communicate respectfully and consider the viewpoints of others. My emotions often get in the way of being able communicate effectively, especially when communicating with my family. I try harder to not let emotions interfere in my work life since I am very aware that it would be very unprofessional. I am fully aware that I need to try harder to keep my emotions in check and make sure I am being respectful at all times, especially when interacting with my family. 

One of the main insights I gained this week was how our self-concept and self-esteem impact how we communicate with others. According to O’Hair & Wienmann (2012), our self-concept shapes what we think of others because our perception of others is related to how we perceive ourselves and this in turn impacts how we respond to others in different situations. I don’t consider myself to be a strong communicator and often question my abilities and therefore often shy away from becoming involved in situations that would place me at the center of attention. I found it interesting that while our self-concept influences how and when we communicate with others, the information we get from interacting with others helps us to develop, confirm or change our self-concept. I realize that by putting myself out there instead of shying away will help me develop a stronger self-concept which I hope will also boost my self-esteem and in turn help me become more confident in my communication both as a professional and in my personal life. 

References

O'Hair, D., & Wiemann, M. (2012). Real communication. New York: Bedford/St. Martin's.